Mubhuku riri kuuya raCathy Wang, The Imposter Syndrome, musori wekuRussia anosimuka nepakati peindasitiri yetekinoroji kuti ave COO kuTangerine (Google riff), nepo mumwe wevadiki vake achiona kusagadzikana kwekuchengetedza, achipa kutamba. Iri bhuku rinorova masherufu musi wa25 Chivabvu, asi EW ichange ichigovera zvitsauko zvinomwe zvekutanga chete pawebhusaiti yedu muzvikamu zvitatu. Verenga ndima yekutanga pazasi.
Pose Lev Guskov akasangana nemunhu anonakidza, aifarira kubvunza vabereki vake mibvunzo. Kana mhinduro iri yokuchenjera, achanyora, uye kana achifunga kuti achaenda mberi, achava nechokwadi chokuti mapepa enhoroondo yemhuri yomukuru wacho apedzwa. Kunyange zvazvo Leo asingatendi kuti vabereki vakanaka vanodiwa pakuita basa rinobudirira. Kutaura zvazviri, mubasa rake, vabereki vakaipa vanowanzova zviratidzo zvekubudirira. Kuzivikanwa kwekutanga kwenhamo, kukunda gomo iri rekuodzwa mwoyo uye kutya, basa, kuvimbika uye chido chekupfuura zvinotarisirwa, kana chete nokuda kwekubvumirwa kwakamborambwa.
Kwaanogara iye zvino, muimba yeyunivhesiti pamahombekombe eRwizi rweMoskva, Lev akakomberedzwa nevabereki vake (zvose zvakanaka nezvakaipa). Aive akaneta, achibvumira zvichemo zvisina chinangwa kuti zvigadzirise hupenyu hweMoscow: mugwagwa weMoscow Ring wakanonoka nemaawa maviri, magaka anodhura muzvitoro zvegirosari, chiremba wedermatologist pakiriniki yehurumende akaramba kunonoka kurara nekuongororwa muviri - wake Aine doro pa. kufema kwake, akati aifanira kutora lunch kumba. Ndakatozofa nekuti mukadzi wake aisakwanisa kuita basa remumba. …?
Makore mashoma apfuura, Leo aive pachikuva mukamuri rakafanana naamai vake mumutsara wekumashure vakabata tulips. Vhiki gare gare, akasvika pane imwe nhurikidzwa ine nhurikidzwa makumi maviri yekongiri pakati peMoscow nokuda kwezuva rake rokutanga pabasa. Muimba yekutandarira pane plaque yendarira ine yekutanga: SPb. National Security Service. Musoro wematatu makuru eRussia akakosha masevhisi.
Kunze kwave kudziya zvino, kureva kuti imba yacho yave kuda kudzipwa. Waanoshanda naye Leo mune yechisere inning, Pyotr Stepanov, akasvetukira kurudyi rwake. Peter akanga akareba uye ari mutete, uye pachigaro chitete akanga akaita sebanga, maoko ake akanga akachekwa uye makumbo akamoneredzwa zvakanyatsoiswa muchadenga. "Zvakadii izvi?" Peter akabvunza achiratidza kunyahwaira kunyangwe Leo aitoziva kuti airevei. Blond kumberi, chiuno chakareba bvudzi.
"Waifunga kuti ndiri kungotarisa zviso?" Peter airatidza kugumbuka. "Tarisa ruvara rwake." Zvinoreva jira rebhuruu nerero rakatenderedza mapendekete ake. Leo anayo mubhokisi riri pasherufu yakakwirira muwadhiropu yake.
"Ah, murume akapusa." Petro akasendamira mberi. “Ipapo mikana inowedzera. Kumusoro uko, iyo redhead iri kurudyi. Anoratidzika zviri nani kupfuura mutsvuku, uye kunyangwe ari pasi penguo iyi yakasununguka unogona kutaura kuti ane muviri wakasimba. " Leo akaona mutsvuku kekutanga pandakapinda mumba ndokumucherechedza nezvikonzero zvakafanana nezvaiitwa naPeter, kunyange asina kutaura kudaro. Chishanu chapfuura, paakanga achigadzirira kubuda kubasa, Peter akamunyengetedza kuti apinde “pakumira nekukurumidza” pabhawa repahotera remazuva ano, uko Leo akanwa chinwiwa chakachipa, bhodhoro remvura yemuGeorgian ine mineral, uye Peter akanyara zvokunyara. trawling. Leo akadzokera kumba pakati peusiku, neimwe nzira achiri kudhakwa, akawana musikana wake Vera Rustamova mukicheni. Vera mutori wenhau weboka renhau reCentral Media yeRussia (RCM). Ane izwi rekusimbisa nhau, rakadzama uye rakapfava, raanokwanisa kupinza mumatoni chaiwo asingatenderi. "Kwete, kwete iye."
“Ko, hazvina kunaka zvakakwana? Kana iwe uchida chimwe chinhu, handizive kana zvakakodzera kuvhima mudhipatimendi resainzi yekombuta. "
Petro akafunga nezvazvo. “Saka unoda kupusa uye kunyangara handiti? Handizivi zvamuri kuita, asi nguva inotevera muchandiperekedza parwendo rwenyu rwekuongorora.”
Leo haana kuzonzwa zvimwe. Anokoka Peter kuti angoshamwaridzana, achigovana chikonzero chekubuda muhofisi - Leo haana kumanikidzwa kuhaya sezvo aita zvakanaka gore rino uye akasimudzira zvinhu zvakati wandei. Mumwe ndiBashkir uye achiri kudzidziswa, asi vamwe vaviri vari kushingaira mukoma nomunun'una: mukoma mukuru mubiki ane ruzivo uye zvino anoshanda muhotera yeLondon inowanzoitwa neveSaudi royals, uye hanzvadzi yake inoshandira gweta muSt. Leo akamuka kuseni musoro uchirwadza zvekuda kutozvishingisa kuuya.
Asi zvino anofara kuti akaita nhamburiko yacho. Kuseri kwezviitiko: mutsara wechina kubva kuruboshwe. Bvudzi rakapfava, ganda rakacheneruka, uye maziso madiki, matema anobaya zvinomupa kutaridzika kunotyisa. Inguva yakareba sei yapfuura? Makore mapfumbamwe? gumi? Asi iye wakamuziva.
Vanodzidaidza kuti masangano ekutsvagisa, asi chokwadi imisha yenherera, nzvimbo dzevana vasingadiwe. Zvivako zvihombe zvakaderera zvine ngura dzokuisa uye makapeti akasakara, bhutsu dzinorema uye tunja remawiricheya zviri pauriri, varidzi vazvo vachiri kuyaruka vanoshandisa michina yakafanana nevanotsvetera. Zvizhinji zvezvivakwa izvi zviri mumaguta makuru uye dzimwe nguva kunze kwemaguta makuru. Leo akatanga kusangana naYulia parwendo kune mumwe wavo.
Akanga achitsvaka mukomana. Mukuru, izvo zvakaoma nokuti vakomana vanowanzotorwa vachiri vadiki kana vakasimba. Basa racho harina kusimba uye rinokosha, rinobatanidza mumiriri weCanada nomudzimai wake. Ivo vanhu voumwari, zvikurukuru mudzimai, uyo akataura vavariro yake yokuvagamuchira vasati vadzokera zvechigarire kuOttawa: kupindura kudanwa kwaMwari nokupa mimwe mweya isingadikanwi mumwe mukana.
Vana vakadanwa mukamuri rakajairwa nemutungamiriri wesangano, mukoti akaderera Maria, ane zera risingagoni kutsanangurwa. Leo anokumbira Maria kuti araire munhu wese kuti azvizivise uye adzokorore mutsara kubva mubhuku ravanofarira.
Nekuita kwepfumbamwe, kutarisa kwaLeo kwakatanga kuchinja. Akaramba akatarisa chiso chake, akaramba akatarisa, akaisa pfungwa dzake pasero apo munhu waaifunga kuti ndiye anovimbisa zvikuru aienda mberi, mukomana aiva nebvudzi remashanga rakanga rakura kusvika pachipfuva chaLeo.
“Zita rangu ndiPavel,” mukomana wacho akatanga. “Bhuku randinofarira nderemurume ane ruvara rweblue. Ane mhasuru uye anogona kubhururuka.” Pavel akavhara maziso ake sekunge ari kufungidzira mifananidzo. “Handina kana shoko rimwe zvaro randinoyeuka.”
Leo avekuda kubuda akanzwa kubatwa ruoko ndokucheuka achitsvaga musikana uya. Aive mupfupi, tsiye dzakatetepa dzakarembera kusvika pamatama akatsetsereka uye mhuno yakati sandara, tsiye dzakakora uye dzisingadzoreki dzakaita kuti apengereke. “Munogona kundiendesa ikoko.
"Ndanga ndichitsvaga chimwe chinhu nhasi," akadaro Leo, nechemumoyo aona kuti aiita kunge bhucha riri kuramba nhindi yenyama. "Ndine hurombo. Maybe next time”.
“Ndiri kugona,” akadaro asingapfakanyiki. “Ndinofarira zvikuru kuita basa rakanaka. Handichatauri zvakaitwa naPauro. Wagona kumusiya.”
Akanakidzwa nemashoko ake. “Pavel haasiye oga mukomana” “Unopfumbata chibhakera paunoisa pfungwa dzako pachinhu chimwe chete. Wakazviita pekutanga Sophia akazembera patii. Aingopfeka juzi chete kana taive nevaenzi, munoziva."
Nechinguva chipfupi Leo akabva atambanudza ruoko rwake kumusana. Akaregedzera zvishoma nezvishoma, achinzwa kuseka. Akapfugama ndokuzevezera achiti, “Wati unogona kuzviita, asi hauzivi kuti rudzii rwebasa randiri kubvunza.
"Zita rako ndiani?" Akaona Sophia, mukadzi ane mukurumbira weV-neck, achiyengerera pedyo, akasvinura uye aine tariro; aiziva kuti zvaida varume, asi zvisinei nekuti murume kana mukadzi, chikoro ichi chakabhadharwa kumwana wese akatorwa neEighth Bureau.
Mimvuri yakapfuura nepamusoro pechiso chake. “Ndave ndiri pano kwoupenyu hwangu hwose,” akagadzirisa pahuro pake. "Munoziva, ini ndinogonawo kuimba."
“Usazviita. Hapana kana nzira isina kururama yekudzidzira mimwe mitauro. Iri ipfungwa yakanaka chaizvo.” Akasimuka ndokuzeza ndokumubhabhadzira musoro. "Maybe tozoonana."
Akaita kanhanho kadiki ndokuramba kubata kwake. “Rini?” "Handizive. Pamwe gore rinouya. Kana kuti inotevera."
Parizvino vakagara vakatarisana mukamuri kuseri kwechitoro cheNSA chemuchina. Iyi ndiyo nzvimbo yaLeo isiri yepamutemo - hapana mumwe mudhipatimendi anofarira kuishandisa, nekuti iri kure, kuMitino. Kwemakore, akagadzirisazve mamiriro acho: akachengeta pikicha yemushandirapamwe yemutungamiri wenyika kana asvika uye akasauya, akabvisa marara aGorbachev, kunyangwe nekukanganisa akasiya poster imwe chete ine katuni inodhakwa sirivha. Zvakaipa pamusoro pemuviri wako nemweya zvakadhindwa pazasi, uye Leo pano neapo anoimba, achizvidira waini iye naVera. Gollum.
"Uchiri kurangarira uchindiona here?" Akafambisa, chair ikaita ruzha rwusingafadzi pasi. "Yaive nguva refu yapfuura."
“Hungu,” akadaro Julia, uye Leo akatora nguva yokunyatsomudzidza. Nehurombo, Julia haasiriye mwana akajairwa ane chimiro chechiso chinokura (kunyangwe mune zvakaitika kuna Leo, anoshanda zvakanyanya haambove ane makore gumi akakwana). Ainge akapfeka rokwe reshinda dzvuku rakasungwa mbira dzakondo kunge remusikana wechidiki, akatakura paper bag rechikafu iro Leo ainhuwa chingwa chinopisa nechizi. Sloykas, akadaro. Mudumbu makarira.
"Zvichiri zvakadai?" Kunyangwe aiziva mhinduro, pari zvino - vhiki mushure mekupedza kudzidza - aive nefaira rakazara paari.
"Uye unoziva zvinoita SPB." Kunyatsomutarisa, nekuti apa ndipo panoratidzwa chikamu chekugona kwake. Kunyange zvazvo pakutanga vakakweverwa kumufaro, kunzwa chimwe chinhu pamusoro pemazita avo chaiwoiwo nemavara okutanga kwakaratidzika kuvakurudzira kuti vafungezve. Hazvina mhosva kuti vanoshanda zvakaoma sei kune SPB, vanogona kuva kure nemeso ake uye zvivi zvavo hazvina kunyorwa.
"Ehe. Saka unoda chii?" Izwi rake rainge rakaoma kuita kunge munhu arimubishi rekusangana nevanhu vakawanda vapedza kubvunzurudza nyangwe zvazvo Leo aiziva zviri nani. Dai Julia akanga apedza kudzidza nerukudzo, angadai akakwanisa kuwana basa mukambani yezvekufambiswa kwemashoko, zvichida kunyange yemarudzi akawanda, asi diploma yake yekoroji inosimbisa kuti mikana yakadaro yakavharwa.
“Zvino hapana. Iwe unofanirwa kuzadza mapepa ekuchengetedza, kudzidzira kudzidziswa. Zvadaro, ndinofunga kuti chekutanga chichava kudzidziswa kwezwi. "
Muhupenyu hwake hwese, Leo akashanda nevarume nevakadzi vakawanda vakakanganisa kuenzanisa maitiro anonyadzisa nesimba. Zvino akaziva kuti zvakanga zvakanaka kubvisa kutenda ikoko pakarepo. "Matauriro aunoita haashiviriki."
Julia akafinyama. Pakamboita runyararo ndokutarisa pasi. “Kana uchifunga kuti mutauro wangu unotaurwa wakashata, zvino sei uchinditsvaka?” akazobvunza achiratidza kunyara. "Nekuti hazvisi zvechitarisiko changu."
“Ndinofunga kuti uri mukadzi anoshingirira,” akadaro Leo, achishandisa shoko rokuti “mukadzi” nemaune. "Izvo, pamwe nekusika, ndizvo zvandinoda."
“Chandinoita basa rangu kugadzira pasuru. Pasuru yemunhu yechinangwa chaicho. Ndinoda kuti musimbise pasina kupokana; dambudziko harisi muzwi rako, asi pamatauriro ako. Hapana kunaka. kuve pachikoro ichi kwenguva yakareba nekuti patakatanga kuonana, hazvina kumboshata kudaro.”
"Ndakaimba rwiyo irworwo," akadaro, uye Leo akaona kuti aifanira kurangarira zvinenge zvese zvekusangana kwavo kwekutanga. Zvichida akanga achitarisira tariro yokuti aizoonekazve kwemakore. “muChirungu.”
“Ehe, uye hunyanzvi hwako hwemutauro hwakanaka. Nemurairidzi wekuvandudza mataurirwo ako, unenge uchinyatsogona. Iwe haufe wakabvisa zvachose matauriro ako, asi iwe unozoshamiswa pane zvaunogona kuwana nekudzidziswa kwakasimba. .”
Akamirira kuti Julia abvunze kuti nei Chirungu chaikosha, asi akazvidzora. “Ibva wandiudza kuti ndichave murairidzi wemanzwi uye ndichadzidza chiRungu zvakanaka. Zvino chii?
“Pamwe tinoita training yekutambisa. Hapana vimbiso. Padanho rega rega, kuita kwako kunoongororwa. "
Akadzungudza musoro. “Kana wagadzirira, uchatanga chikamu chinotevera. Shumirai nyika yedu, muchivande, kunze kwenyika…”
"Ok, kupi?" pakanga pane shungu mukuda kuziva kwake. Angori mwana, Leo akafunga. Zvakaipa, asi achiri mwana.
“Tinogona kuziva maguta gare gare. Tine vanhu kuBerkeley neStanford. Kuti uwane vhiza, unofanirwa kunyoresa muzvirongwa zvekupedza kudzidza. "
"Chii, haufungi kuti internet inonakidza?" “Handisi munhu anoramba akatarisa pakombiyuta zuva rose.”
“Zvakanaka, pamwe unogona kuwedzera imwe hobby. Boom itsva iri kuuya. Ndinoda kuti utange kambani yehunyanzvi. Kambani chaiyo yeSilicon Valley ine dzimbahwe renzvimbo. "
"Ehe. Mutambi anokwana anokwezva vanoisa mari zvakanaka. Vashandi vachave vakakosha, kunyanya pakutanga. Kubva kwavari iwe uchagamuchira zvikumbiro kubva kune mamwe mabhizinesi, vanobatana - ecosystem yemuno, sekutaura. Chikamu chehurongwa. Tinoridaidza kuti zambuko. Kunze kwaiva nenyanga uye kurira kwenzvimbo dzekuvakisa. Zvichida metro, Leo akafunga, yaigara yakavimbiswa kuvakwa. Akamirira mhinduro yaJulia yaaifunga kuti yakanaka. Anoyeuka nguva yokutanga yaakafemera mumhepo kunze kweSan Francisco, kutapira kwemapapu ake - akakurumidza kujaira, ndokuzozvitora sezvinei kusvikira adzokera mundege. Asi Julia haana kunyemwerera nekukurumidza kana chimwe chiratidzo chekufarira, akangodhonza kora yake. Akatamba-tamba neshinda yedonje nemaoko, maziso ake akavhura ndokutarisa patafura. “Waona mamakisi angu,” akadaro.
“Hmm,” akafema. “Ipapo unotoziva kuti handina tarenda. Kwenguva yakati, ndakafunga kuti kunyange kana ndakanga ndisingafariri kirasi yangu, ndaigona kudzidza nesimba, asi zvakanga zvisina kukwana.”
Leo akashamisika: akanga asingatarisiri kuti abvume kusakwana kwake. Asi izvo zvinongoreva kuti iye akanyanya kutaura nezve kukodzera kwake sechinhu. Hongu, zvakanaka kuve nehunyanzvi hwekombuta, asi munhu akadaro haatomboda kushanda-chero zvakadaro, pamusoro-avhareji vanhu muUS vari pedyo nekuve nyanzvi.
“Handidi nyanzvi. Ingori humwe hunyanzvi hwehunyanzvi. Unoshanda nesimba, wakangondiudza zvauri.”
"Aihwa. Uchaita zvese izvi. Vakai kambani muitungamirire” “Asi ndakuudza kare, handikwanise kubata chikamu chehunyanzvi” “Don’t worry about it” Akatarisa wachi yake. Metal
Nguva yekutumira: Sep-15-2022